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What do you do... When even when your eyes are open all you can see is darkness, maybe i let it consume me, i mean, yeh i give up too easy, but why should i be the only one to try, they never tried, and then i gave up... I just feel like i am lost in the shadows, i can see the light, and i keep trying to get to it, but i need help, and no-one is there anymore. people used to be, to get me outta the badtimes... but not anymore... and who blames them, they have there own lives, lies and shit to deal with... why should i be so dependant on others. I give off a good impession that i am fine on my own. but all ive ever wanted is to be in that light, with someone i care about.

I'am just wallowing in darkness at the moment.